Home Schooling

I opted for home schooling if my parents were able to provide everything needed. But my parents weren't educated people and they don't know what is home schooling is. For them, able to send me to school i.e public school is consider something very good enough because that is what they can afford.

In my country, during my school time, i.e. + - 20 years back so as today, even though there are many private school, school was 100% managed by government and half of the cost was by government. This makes the fees cheaper than private school & perhaps home schooling. So, that's the only option my parents have to enabling their daughter educated. That's the reason why I ended up in public school.

Though I do not condemn public school, like I said earlier, if my parents were able to home schooling me, I will choose that.

As bad experience in school, I am sure everyone will have one. As for my self, during 5th grade, I was being slapped by my teacher because I am not finishing my homework. It is Math’s subject. But as an 11 years old girl and just moving to that school for few months, I don't know anyone much and I don't even close to any teacher. (New school nightmares eh!?)

I admit that I am not very bright in Math but what makes me regrets & disappointed with that incident is that not because I get slap because I don't do my homework, but, for some other reason. The teacher said it is the reason but another teacher and some other classmate said the teacher got angry with me because I was slapping one of my classmates.

Nah... don’t get excited... I know maybe you people would think that I am a bad girl or bullying. But NO! The fact is that the classmate is the one who disturb me 1st. He is considered as a clever student by that teacher though everyone knows that he is very naughty. Because of that, none of the teacher will stop what he is doing. Being a new girl, I don’t know that fact & because I cannot stand him who always bullying me & disturb me, one day I slap him back after he pull my ponytail (I had a long hair those days. Comparing our sizes that time, I am the smallest in the class.

I guess he's complained about that incident to that teacher & guess what, the incident that I got slap by the teacher is not immediately after the incident I fight back the boy. But, it is during that teacher class i.e. Math class.

Being naive, new and also no one I can tell the incident, I just keep quiet. I don’t even tell my parents. But the scar from that incident makes me hated Math subject & also that school. I was determine to go to boarding school doesn't matter if it is a good or not as long as it is a boarding school. It is because those days, boarding school is a hot thing & anyone who are able to entered will be consider as a clever student (Seems like I want to prove to that teacher that I am good at study too :D).

Gosh! I really can't forget that teacher & that incident though I don't know where is she about now. This has makes me feel very down, I became an introvert and no self confidence for a very long time (probably until today).